...but I won't bore you with the details....
Okay, I admit it's been much too long since I last provided an entry on this neglected, orphanish website. Many details of my life have been forgotten and ignored. I always aim to change that with every new blog entry, yet consistency is still a hard-reached goal.
I tend to write when I have things that are keeping me from sleeping or otherwise being a productive person. What do you do when you love someone, want to see them achieve their professional and personal dreams, want to feel a part of that dynamic, and you put yourself out there, really out there, and for naught? It's a hard thing. And I'm struggling. Really struggling.
I've been told in the past I'm cagey and don't open up enough. So I open up a little bit...and then a bit more. Trying to be the person I 'think' I am.
As I get older, personal relationships are much more complicated and cluttered with each person's individual histories and back stories. I have a ton of short comings myself and I am trying to confront them and become a more reliable and curious person. I need help and support to keep this train rolling. But I'm just short of derailing.
